Thursday, May 10

Random Moments

Recently, one of the senior girls has gotten into the habit of stopping by my office any chance she can for some girl chat. I'm not sure if it's because she enjoys my company or if she just is taking any excuse she can to get out of her classes. Whichever way it is, I've enjoyed (as she puts it) "solving the world's problems" together.
Today we were casually discussing the game their class played in history; how the boys annihilated the girls in one swift swoop, as well as the food they would be having at their graduation parties. As always, it was a funny conversation completely full of randomness.
Out of the blue, she tells me that the senior class really seems to be getting along well the last couple days. As with any group of 18ish year old, about to embark on adulthood and freedom, the last few weeks of school usually are pretty hard; emotions run high and tempers are short. My friend was pretty excited about the fact that they had found some peace as of late.
This quickly led into a conversation on friendships/relationships. We talked about how most people her age (and I guess mine as well, though 10 years ahead) think in what she termed "the Cinderella" train of thought. You know, the idea that there is no need to work on things, no need to push through the hard times and really figure out who a person is so that the relationship can mature. The perfect scenario of all events will just happen.
I've found this to be true in a lot of areas of my life. I tend to want the easy way out of most things. I want a good job, but don't want to put in the hours of work. I want intelligence, but don't want to study. I want change in my community, but don't want to step up and lead. I want maturity and truth in my relationships but don't want to ask the tough questions.
It's easy for me to think that I can sit back and let things take it's natural course. And if it doesn't work out, I walk away. I change jobs, I look for different church, I dump my boyfriends and see new friends. It's too hard to take the responsibility on myself and make things work.
There is a situation going on in my life right now that fits this bill. I'd like nothing less then to hide tail and run. But I can't. Easy doesn't always equal right. And more often then not, it's through those tough times that the greatest reward emerges.
It's amazing how God uses those moments of "randomness" to remind us of His truths.

1 comments:

Summer said...

You heartbreaker - dumping boys left and right!