(Still) Learning to TRUST

There have been those times in my life where everything seemed to fall into place. All the pieces would come together and things would just happen the way it was supposed to. Those are peaceful, stress free, enjoyable experiences. I savor those moments because they don't come very often.

The reality is that things seem to be a little harder most of the time. The minute I start to feel like I have things figured out, or questions are beginning to be answered or I'm just getting comfortable, the rug is pulled out from under me and the world is once again upside down.

Here's the thing right now: My parents recently decided to accept a job back at their old school in the OKC area. They informed their current employers that they would be leaving at the end of July in order to start their new assignment the middle of August. About a week ago however, their employer decided that they needed them out of their house (their housing is provided by their work) and completed with their jobs by the end of June. This of course was quite a stir up from their original plans.

Along side of that, I have an upcoming job in Bartlesville. While I am incredibly excited, though somewhat overwhelmed, about the job, I am starting to question whether or not I myself will have housing. Kelley and I spent several hours yesterday driving around the city and making phone calls on potential renting possibilities. As we drove, I began adding up the amount of money required for deposits, etc. We didn't find many workable options. We left discouraged and with even more questions then answers on what my future would hold.

Great words from my mom, "God isn't going to leave you homeless" to which I responded, "hopefully not for very long at least".

There is no doubt in my mind that things will work out. He's already answered the prayer for my family and provided them a house that they can move into right away. Their answer came pretty quickly.

It's taking a little longer for mine.

And while what I said above about "no doubt" is what I want to be true; if there truly was no doubts, would I have this knot of anxiety in the pit of my stomach?

Trust is defined as: the "firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of another"
God's integrity is perfect. God's ability is perfect. God's character is perfect. And I can rely on Him.

I guess He will continue to turn my world upside down, shake things up and move me out of my comfort state so that I will learn to trust HIM.